I’ve Got It All Together

Good Morning FB Peeps!!! Some of you know that I have been taking time first thing every morning to write in a journal. This morning, I have decided to use that time to write for my pitiful lonely blog.

Life has been wonderful, things have been falling into place and going my way. I have stayed on track with my goals, working hard sun up to sun down every day! Eating dinner at the table as a family every night and then relaxing with my family in a clean house on Sundays. And Saturdays, well we have started our Christmas shopping and the rest of the Saturday we take turns picking something to go out and do together as a family. . . Can’t wait for Greenville’s outdoor ice rink to open!! I’m feeling great and very well accomplished in all I’ve set out to do! As a wife and mom, I feel successful, and God and I have never been tighter!

….now if you believe ANY of that, I have some ocean front property I want to sell you in Arizona!

Like so many, I hide behind the façade of “I’ve got it all together”, and God forbid any of you who also have it “all together” know that I don’t. My life has changed drastically in the last few years, and it has caused me to feel very different about many things. I’ve been told that my way of feeling and thinking right now isn’t . . .ummmm, shall we say, popular. I’ve been told my way of thinking now, is something people don’t want to hear because it’s not “happy”. Maybe to some it doesn’t sound “happy”, but for me, I feel it has allowed me to finally be able to accept me as I am, and life as it is. Am I happy? Not all the time, matters of fact, I have struggled for the last 2 years with depression….. See that’s one of those things I’m not suppose to share and you aren’t suppose to know about me. For the longest time, I didn’t think it was depression because my idea of what depression looked like was not me. I still function in my roles every day, and most days I’m in a great mood and loving life. “I’m just having some bad days”, is what I told myself. I finally understood the saying, “Those with the biggest smiles are sometimes the ones hiding the most pain.” You won’t see me break down or moping around feeling sorry for myself. When you see me, I plan to be smiling and loving life. And it’s not because I’m trying to keep up a façade for you. It’s because I refuse to let depression steal my life from me. I actually did not intend to go this route with this blog but maybe someone needed to hear it.

The truth about me is that life has not always been wonderful and going my way. There are many circumstances in my life I wish I could change, but I will keep moving forward enjoying the Blessings I do have and focusing on what I can change. I have not stayed on track with all my goals…. This is the first time in about 2 weeks that I have taken that quiet time in the morning to write and the 5k I wanted to be ready to do this month isn’t gonna happen. But today I’m writing and there’s always a 5k that I can start preparing for. And I do have days I work sun up to sun down, but somehow my to do list never seems to get shorter. We usually eat dinner in the living room because our stacks of clean clothes never seem to find there way off the family table and to their designated drawers. And a clean house???… Lets just say it’s a work in progress of where I never seem to make much progress! Start Christmas shopping?!?!?! I’m just hoping to get it started by the last weekend before Christmas! And doing things together as a family on Saturdays. . .it’s 30 degrees outside, we are hibernating till Spring! ….and as for Greenville’s ice rink, I ain’t about to fight for a parallel parking space, fight the crowd of Parent’s and their screaming kids, to have a go at falling on my butt so many times on ice that I will leave with a solid sheet of ice on the seat of my pants! Most days I’m not feeling great, with knots in my back, aching knees, etc. And it has been a while since I felt accomplished. . .I’m behind on everything! As a mom and wife, I make mistakes, but I love my family and they know that. And God…. Well, I’ve been asking a lot of questions and it’s been kind of quiet listening for answers.

Even as I write this, I’m trying to talk myself out of posting it…. Telling myself, “you sound like you’re having a pity party, people are going to think you’re just looking for attention, people are going to think you’re nuts”. Truth is that maybe you will think some of those things and it may sound like a pity party to some. I can’t control what anyone thinks or how this post is perceived, but none of those were my intentions. I’m just exhausted from “keeping it all together” and if I’m the only one feeling this way then so be it, but if I’m not then maybe this post will help someone else who is also exhausted from “keeping it all together” that it’s ok to feel this way.

And just so it doesn’t sound all doom and gloom. . .I do have many things in my life that are tremendous blessings. I have hobbies I love, and I have fun laughing and cutting up with my boys, and anyone who knows me knows how much I love the volunteer work I get to do! I love who I am, there is room for improvement, but overall I love me! I’m quirky and a little weird, but its part of my charm! And I have family and friends I wouldn’t trade for anything! And any goals I haven’t reached, I am still working on, as long as I’ve not given up then I’ve not failed. Overall my life is good, I just chose to focus more in this post on the parts that ain’t so perfect. Most of the time, I’m actually a very goofy and cheery (not cherry) person!!  🙂

What I hope you’re able to take away from this, is simply that it is ok to not have it all together!

Ok, I gotta go. . . about to be running late for the hair color appointment I have today to cover my roots that I have let grow out about 3 inches!!

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God has called me to forgive. . .

Below is something I wrote a few months ago and I wasn’t sure if I would share it or not but I ran across it again today and felt maybe now’s the time to share. . . Forgiveness isn’t easy for anyone and it has been an especially difficult rode for me to walk. But thru reading other blogs and finding comfort knowing there are others going thru similar situations as me, I thought i might share this in case God can use what I’ve been learning from what I’ve been thru to bring comfort to someone else.

 

God Has Called Me To Forgive

Once in a while God will be dealing with me on an issue that I feel him leading me to share. Maybe I am the only one that thought I had forgiveness figured out only to be learning now that I wasn’t even close. But just maybe, there’s one or two more out there that God needs to reach with this message so here goes…

I want to start by quoting some scriptures that most of us are probably familiar with and probably use all the time when we “forgive” others, but have we really took the time to let the words sink in and understand what they call us to do in order to truly forgive?

Some of these are a little long but I feel it’s important to read every word.

Matthew 5:44-45

“But I tell you, love those who hate you. (Respect and give thanks for those who say bad things to you. Do good to those who hate you.) Pray for those who do bad things to you and make it hard for you. Then you may be the sons of your Father Who is in Heaven. His sun shines on bad people and on good people. He sends rain on those who are right with God and on those who are not right with God.”

Mark 11:25

“When you stand to pray, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him. Then your Father in heaven will forgive your sins also.”

Matthew 6:14-15

“If you forgive people their sins, your Father in heaven will forgive your sins also. If you do not forgive people their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.”

Romans 12:20

“If the one who hates you in hungry, feed him. If he is thirsty, give him drink.

Luke 6:35-38

“But love those who hate you. Do good to them. Let them use your things and do not expect something back. Your reward will be much. You will be the children of the Most High. He is kind to those who are not thankful and to those who are full of sin. You must have loving-kindness just as your Father has loving-kindness. Do not say what is wrong in other people’s lives. Then other people will not say what is wrong in your life. Do not say someone is guilty. Then other people will not say you are guilty. Forgive other people and other people will forgive you. Give, and it will be given to you. You will have more than enough. It can be pushed down and shaken together and it will still run over as it is given to you. The way you give to others is the way you will receive in return.”

Proverbs 20:22

“Do not say, ‘I will punish wrongdoing.’ Wait on the Lord, and He will take care of it.

Psalm 103:12-14

“He has taken our sins from us as far as the east is from the west. The Lord has loving-pity on those who fear Him, as a father has loving-pity on his children. For He knows what we are made of. He remembers that we are dust.”

Matthew 18:21-22

“Then Peter came to Jesus and said, ‘Lord, how many times may my brother sin against me and I forgive him, up to seven times?’ Jesus said to him, ‘I tell you, not seven times but seventy times seven!’”

**Matthew 18:15-20 deals with how to handle a situation with someone who has sinned against you in order to attempt to set things straight and to make sure you are in God’s will on the situation.

And last but not least, we all know the Lords supper, but I want to focus in on the line dealing with forgiveness:

Matthew 6:9-13

“. . . Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. . .”

 

I’m not here to point any fingers at anyone but myself. So I will keep this about me. I have people in my life who have hurt me deeply. This wasn’t a onetime incident but a situation where I have been hurt over and over for years. I finally came to a place where I realized the relationship was very unhealthy and destructive. I had tried everything I knew to do to try to “fix” the relationship and it always blew up in my face. Through counseling a while back I was at least able to realize that it wasn’t my job to “fix” it and to only worry about “my side” of the issues. Which I feel I have done to the best of my ability while trying to learn to set healthy boundaries with “the other side”. I asked God to forgive me of my wrongdoings in the situation and I said I forgave them. I felt that I had. I no longer felt angry with them on a daily basis (although there were still moments of anger that I had to deal with). This went on for several years until more happened that lead me to feel stricter boundaries needed to be set. I felt the need to go through forgiving them again and asking for forgiveness. So I did. So that took care of that. . . or did it?

I said I forgave them. I didn’t feel angry. I didn’t wish them any ill will and perfectly happy to live my life and they continue to live theirs happily as long as they left me out of it. I must insert here, that there is a time for strict boundaries and sometimes that boundary is to no longer have interaction with the other party. Because of the seriousness of the issues, I do believe this situation calls for just such a boundary. However, on the totally separate issue of Forgiveness where did I really stand? Have I really forgiven as God has called me to forgive? If forgiveness was as easy and saying the words, “I forgive you” then why the need for blood sacrifice in the Old Testament and why did God have to sacrifice his only son in order for us to receive forgiveness?

I have to admit, I have been very happy to let the process of forgiveness be that easy but truth is, it’s not. I want to try to answer the What, Why, When, & How of Forgiveness.

What is Forgiveness?

I want to start with the definition of “Forgive” (taken from Websters online dictionary)

1) a : to give up resentment of or claim to requital for <forgive an insult>

b : to grant relief from payment of <forgive a debt>

 

2) : to cease to feel resentment against (an offender) : pardon <forgive one’s enemies>

 

I was excited to see how closely Websters definition was to the Biblical definition. I believe the best verse to bring a simple relationship between Websters definition and the Biblical definition is in:

Proverbs 20:22

“Do not say, ‘I will punish wrongdoing.’ Wait on the Lord, and He will take care of it.

Forgiveness is when we are able to realize that the one we are forgiving didn’t break our laws but God’s laws. What that person did may have caused us hurt but their sin was against God. When we forgive, we “give up our claim to feel resentful or our right to punish, and we allow the Lord to take care of it.”

I need to reemphasize here that if you choose to set boundaries with this person after forgiving them it is likely they will accuse you of not truly forgiving them because you are “punishing” them by putting up the boundary. That is a lie of the enemy and a manipulation tactic. Again, there are numerous places in the Bible where God advises and even sets examples of healthy boundaries, a topic I hope to write more about at a later time. Forgiveness and boundaries go hand in hand but I am attempting to tackle one at a time.

Once we truly grasp that the sin was against God and not us, it allows us to look at the whole process a little more clearly and we are able to begin to “Let Go & Let God”.

Why give Forgiveness?

After what we just learned, the most obvious reason would be because the sin wasn’t against us to begin with. But there is another answer to that question.

If you want forgiveness from God and others you have wronged, then you must forgive. There are promises in God’s Word that have no “conditions”, such as God’s promise to send His Son to die for us. The fulfillment of that promise, thank goodness, did not depend on a condition needing to be met by any human. The forgiveness provided by the cross is free to anyone if (there’s the condition) we also forgive others. Christ will freely come into our lives and save us with no condition (other than us asking Him), but to receive daily forgiveness, which we all need, we must be willing to forgive others. I may be pushing some buttons with this one. I for one always thought the only condition to me being forgiven for me to ask for it. However, when we carefully read scriptures we see receiving forgiveness has the condition of giving forgiveness.

Starting with the Lord’s Prayer:

Matthew 6:9-13

“. . . Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. . .”

Mark 11:25

“When you stand to pray, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him. Then your Father in heaven will forgive your sins also.”

Matthew 6:14-15

“If you forgive people their sins, your Father in heaven will forgive your sins also. If you do not forgive people their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.”

I would love to go on believing that I’m forgiven when I ask without worrying about whether I have forgiven others or not. But the God has clearly stated in His Word that “. . . he forgives as we forgive. . .”; . . . forgive him. Then your Father will forgive. . .”; & “If you forgive. . . your Father will forgive”. We also are told what happens, in Matthew 6:15, when we don’t forgive, “If you do not forgive. . . your Father will not forgive. . .”.

We also see the condition of being forgiven by others we have wronged in

Matthew 6:37-38

“Do not say what is wrong in other people’s lives. Then other people will not say what is wrong in your life. Do not say someone is guilty. Then other people will not say you are guilty. Forgive other people and other people will forgive you. Give, and it will be given to you. You will have more than enough. It can be pushed down and shaken together and it will still run over as it is given to you. The way you give to others is the way you will receive in return.”

So to put it simple, we must forgive because:

1. The sin was against God’s laws, not ours

2. We must forgive if we want to be forgiven

 

When do we give forgiveness?

Mark 11:25

“When you stand to pray, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him. Then your Father in heaven will forgive your sins also.”

God said “if you have anything against anyone, forgive him.” I take that to mean anytime I have something against someone I am to forgive. I read on in that passage and nowhere did I find permission to not forgive if I didn’t feel like it or wasn’t ready to let go of my anger.

You may be wondering how many times must I forgive someone. I mean, surely God doesn’t expect us to continue to put up with someone doing us wrong, right? While again, this is where “healthy boundaries” will come into play, God said to Peter in:

Matthew 18:21-22

“Then Peter came to Jesus and said, ‘Lord, how many times may my brother sin against me and I forgive him, up to seven times?’ Jesus said to him, ‘I tell you, not seven times but seventy times seven!’”

Therefore, healthy boundaries should help to limit another’s ability to give us reason to forgive them, if such a reason does arise God has basically said, there is no limit to how many times we are to forgive. I have to admit this was not one of my favorite verses because I wanted an excuse to write someone off and not have to forgive them. They did me wrong one too many times and no longer deserve my forgiveness. However, seeing as how God forgiving me goes hand in hand with me forgiving others, I had to then see this verse a little differently.

Let’s say Peter wasn’t asking about how many times he should forgive others, but instead asked, “Father, how many times are you willing to forgive me?” If God placed a limit on how many times He were willing to forgive me, then I would spend eternity in Hell. Because I know I probably reached whatever limit He would’ve set years ago. I personally can live with forgiving others with no limit because my Father has been willing to do the same for me, and I know I don’t deserve it!

Now to the hardest question of them all. . .

How do we forgive?

This first verse is what got my attention and made me realize I had NOT forgiven, truly forgiven, hardly anyone. OUCH!

Matthew 5:44-45

“But I tell you, love those who hate you. (Respect and give thanks for those who say bad things to you. Do good to those who hate you.) Pray for those who do bad things to you and make it hard for you. Then you may be the sons of your Father Who is in Heaven. His sun shines on bad people and on good people. He sends rain on those who are right with God and on those who are not right with God.”

I had to ask myself, “How many people have I said I forgave and then thanked God for them, done good to them, or prayed for them”? Honestly, I could only think of 2 examples of when I had done those things and I’m not even sure I did it with the understanding that it was part of forgiving them. This verse and the following verses shows us that it is not enough to say we forgive them, let go of resentment, set boundaries, and move on. But we are to actively portray the love of Christ to them. Again, because of the need for healthy boundaries, there may be circumstances where all you can do is pray for them, and if that is the case then that is what we should be doing. One extreme example of a need for boundaries would be a physically abusive relationship. Of course you would set boundaries that would prohibit that person from being in your life to continue to abuse you, but we are still called to do them good, even if only by praying for them. I can’t pretend to know how hard it would be to pray for a physical abuser, but by drawing on God’s strength it is what we are called to do.

 

Romans 12:20

“If the one who hates you in hungry, feed him. If he is thirsty, give him drink.

Luke 6:35-36

“But love those who hate you. Do good to them. Let them use your things and do not expect something back. Your reward will be much. You will be the children of the Most High. He is kind to those who are not thankful and to those who are full of sin. You must have loving-kindness just as your Father has loving-kindness.

The last verse I want to touch on is what happens when we forgive or are forgiven.

Psalm 103:12-14

“He has taken our sins from us as far as the east is from the west. The Lord has loving-pity on those who fear Him, as a father has loving-pity on his children. For He knows what we are made of. He remembers that we are dust.”

Just as God takes our sin from us and wipes it from our history, so are we to do the same when we forgive someone. This is one that I am trying to implement in my forgiveness in my marriage. If we have truly forgiven then that grievance is no longer fair game to bring up in future arguments or discussions. That is a hard one for anyone but it must be part of forgiving. Something else about this verse made me think. In our relationships we come to expect certain things of each other. In marriage we expect our husbands to always act loving toward us, and wives to always show husbands respect. With our children we expect them to obey us, with friends we expect them to be there in the hard times. But when we choose to see our loved ones through the eyes of Christ then we must remember that everyone will fail us from time to time not because they are bad people who don’t love us but because “they are dust”. God is willing to put aside His expectations of us when we ask forgiveness because He knows we are only human and bound to fail from time to time. We must remember the same about those we love when they ask us for forgiveness or even if they don’t ask for forgiveness.

I believe that in reality Christ forgave us for everything we would ever do in that moment on the cross. I don’t know how else He could’ve went through with it if He hadn’t let go of the resentment He must have felt for having to be put in that position to save us from our own lack of obedience. Just as we are able to forgive our loved ones before they ever ask for it, or if they ever ask for it, but we don’t actually receive the forgiveness already given till we forgive those in our lives that we need to forgive.

Day 42 – The Journey Is Just Beginning

I apologize in advance for the long blog entry. There were about 3 times I had wanted to blog but just haven’t had the time to sit down and do so. Therefore, I have a feeling this one could end up a little long.

First, I want to just put it out there that all my “stats” are moving in the right direction… except my water. I carry my water every where I go but forget to drink. So I have now set my phone to beep at me 5 times a day to remind me to be drinking. My goal is to have my water where it should be by Monday (or at least a major leap in the right direction). Another goal I had was to lose a total of at least 25 lbs by the end of the 42 days. I believe I would have made it if I had not gotten sick 2 weeks ago. The last couple weeks got a little thrown off because I had to up my calories just a little, adding extra fruit, because my body was using extra energy to fight off the infection. However, as of this morning I have lost 21.4 lbs!!  I still call that a success!

My illness was one blog I missed writing about. That was my one concern starting this diet. I was concerned that only taking in 500 calories daily, getting sick could have a really negative effect with my weight loss or energy. It did! I stuck to the diet, minus the few days I had to add a little extra fruit, but my energy level was completely zapped! There were about 3 days last weekend that just walking into the kitchen to cook my meal would absolutely wear me out. Even though I stuck very closely to my calories, the extreme lack of activity I believe contributed to an almost stand still in weight loss. While that’s a little frustrating because I won’t meet the 25 lb. loss for the 42 days, I recognize that this is a long term life change and I know I will meet my goals (short and long term goals) in time.

I have to confess that most of the 42 days I did not stick to my exercises as I should have but I am getting better with that and I am excited to ease back into some of my old exercises. I’m anxious for Jazzercise and to slowly get back into running (something I not only enjoy but have to do to prepare for the academy).

One other confession I need to make. Yesterday I went to Trader Joe’s to pick up a few things and at the register the cashier asked me to hold out my hand and without even thinking about what I was doing, as a reflex, I did. He dropped a few chocolate covered caramel balls in my hand. Once I realized what had happened and realized I was standing there with these chocolate covered caramel balls in my hand, with a cashier watching me anxiously to try what he had so enthusiastically shared with me, I froze. I didn’t know what to do. I had not had ANYTHING other than appropriate meat, veggies, and fruit for 39 days! What I should have done was thank him but politely let him know I was on a special diet and couldn’t eat them, but not thinking quick enough in that moment as to how to say that without sounding snobbish, I tried them. He was right, they were the most delicious chocolate covered caramel balls I have ever tasted!! Of course, that may have had something to do with no sweets in 39 days. . . I beat myself up about it the whole way home and what bothered me even more is that I have no idea how many calories were in them. So on top of it not being approved food, I also had no idea how many calories it took me over for the day. I was very upset that with only a day and a half left to complete 42 days of NO sweets, I messed up by eating these “candies”. But I needed to confess it and move on. I know this may sound some silly but it was a big deal to me. I just really wanted to complete the 42 days knowing that I didn’t cheat at all. . .but who knows, maybe there is a lesson for me to learn in this. :/

Day 40, 41, & 42 I was to stop taking the drops while remaining on 500 calories. I was a little concerned that I would be starving. I did get hungry every morning around 9:30 but would have one of my “free veggies” and for the rest of the day I felt fine. This morning I was pretty hungry when I woke up and my sugar felt slightly low (probably my fault because I forgot to eat my fruit last night with dinner). So I had a mango smoothie this morning and afterward felt fine. Tomorrow morning will be the first time in 40 days that I will up my calories and eat breakfast!! Obviously, I won’t be just jumping right back into old eating habits. . . I don’t ever plan to go back to my old eating habits. This was about a lifestyle change for me and The Journey Is Just Beginning! I have been given a plan to follow for this next part of my journey. I will write more about that in a new Blog. I created this blog to focus on the 500 calorie diet part of my Journey. So this entry will end this blog. Tomorrow I will start my new blog and seeing as how my focus over the next few months will be preparation for the Police Academy my new blog will be titled “Go Big or Go Home”!

Day 19 – Fast Food

Yes, today I had fast food for the first time since starting this diet! Before you all gasp in horror, I did my homework and made sure what I got was ok for me to have. I was out all day running errands and I knew before I left the house that I would not be able to microwave food, so I looked into Chick-fil-a’s grilled nuggets. As far as I could tell from the amount of ounces (4 oz of chicken with the 6 pc, which is what I’m suppose to have), the calories which came to exactly the amount that is allowed in 4 oz of chicken, and the way they are made, the Grilled chicken nuggets were perfectly fine for me to have. I got a side salad (skipping the salad dressing) and a small fruit cup. I had to pick the cheese off my salad and eat it with no dressing (I will carry me a small cup of my homemade dressing from now on) and I was allowed to eat everything in the fruit cup except the grapes. The salad, as one could imagine, was dry without salad dressing, but the chicken and fruit was yummy. I do not plan to make it habit to “eat out”, but it is nice to know if I’m in a situation where I can’t get home to eat when I need to that I don’t have to go hours past my lunch time before I can eat. In the future I actually plan to try to use a to go soup container, the kind that is suppose to keep soup hot for days like this one. But I’m not always that prepared. It felt very weird ordering fast food for myself. I haven’t ordered anything fast food except an occasional unsweet tea in over 2 weeks and I felt like I was doing something wrong even though I was picking stuff I could have.

I want to take time while on this diet to do more research into restaurant food. I know there is a way to “order smart”, and it’s time I start learning how. So that when I do come off this diet, restaurants don’t become a pit-fall for me. I’ll keep you posted on what I discover!

Day 17 – I’m Getting Younger

Today I had my accountability appointment with my doctor again. Things are continuing in the right direction. I do need to work on my daily water a little more. I’m bad about forgetting to drink during the day. When I started this the machine thingy said my physical state was that of a 72 year old; today it said 66 year old! YAY!! I’m getting younger every day!!   🙂

I do have to confess, I am still having trouble getting up on time in the mornings. I’m not sure what’s going on. Even before starting the diet (months before), I had been trying to get up early but I have had a harder time with getting up then I have ever had! I am going to work really hard on getting more sleep and I’m going to put my loudest alarm in the bathroom. That way, I have to get up and go to the bathroom to turn it off and once in there hopefully, I will go ahead and start getting ready and not head back to bed!

I am now wearing a pair of jeans one size smaller, a pair I haven’t been able to wear in over a year! I have had many tell me they see a difference in my face and I am feeling better and better! I have come up with a few new “food things” I want to try and will post about them soon!

Day 13 – Oops, was that exercise?

Day 13. . . WOW!! If you had told me a few months ago that there would come a time when I would go 13 days on just 500 calories a day and be successful, no sneaking oreos, or just a taste of chocolate, I would have said you were crazy! But here I am, 13 days in and still feeling GREAT!!! I have been on diets where I limited myself to about 1200 to 1400 calories a day and was miserable, hungry all the time and constantly thinking about food. Fighting everyday to see what I could squeeze into those 1200 – 1400 calories! But here I am on 500 calories a day and feeling great! I get a little bit hungry before lunch (I do feel a little slower getting going in the mornings but not bad), and occasionally I will crave one of my favorite sweets. But overall I’m feeling satisfied and my energy is good… and I don’t walk around thinking about food all day. Other than what yummy lunch and dinner I wanna try cooking. In other words, I keep my focus on the things I know I can have. I guess the drops that come with this program really do work!! I know without them I would be a lot more hungry all the time and a lot more tired!

As you all know I am not suppose to exercise on this diet. The most I am allowed to do is my morning core work and walking. However, I ended up playing basketball with the girls at my boy’s school during their practice today for about 30 minutes. I really wasn’t thinking about what I was doing and about how much moving around I would be doing. I really broke a sweat and about 20 minutes in started feeling very tired and then realized I was burning away what few calories I was allowed in my day. I went and sat down and had an orange and began to feel better. But I honestly wasn’t thinking of what I was doing as exercise until I started wearing down! I guess in the past I have burned about 450 calories during 30 minutes of basketball but I just wasn’t thinking of it like that at the time. I just finished dinner and I am feeling good, but will definitely need to be more aware of my activity level in the future till off this diet.

I am very much enjoying the food on this diet!! And I even have the family eating some of it. I had a soup the other night that I shared on facebook. So far that is my new favorite!!! I’m trying to incorporate more foods that are “Right for my blood type”. I was told that if you can stick with foods that are right for your blood type then you have more success with this diet. So far I think it’s working!! My “accountability check-in” with my doctor went GREAT Monday! The nurse measured my waist twice because she couldn’t believe I dropped 2 whole inches!! As of today I am at 178.4, which brings me to being down 10.6 lbs.!! I have an app on my phone with My Fitness Pal where I have put in my goals of 500 calories a day and I keep track of all my calories that I eat. Everyday the app fusses at me saying that I am eating too few calories. I know this will sound silly, but I keep waiting for the app to “tattle” on me and have a social worker or something knocking at my door trying to force me to eat more! LOL  So far my phone has kept my secret!! 🙂

I appreciate everyone’s support and encouragement! If anyone of you, or someone you know, is interested in learning more about this diet you can contact my Chiropractor at Ehlich Family Chiropractic in Greer and ask them about their weight loss seminar. Tell them I sent you!!

Just sharing one of my favorite meals. . .

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Day 8 – Consequences

Ok, I know technically today is Day 9, and before I go into why I’m writing on Day 8 instead, let me just say that today I am feeling good and back on track.

However, I named Day 8 “Consequences” due to feeling the consequences from not eating the proper amount of calories and getting off on my drops… not to mention not drinking enough water. On Day 7 I had some unexpected family issues to deal with that came up kind of quick that morning and I ended up having to be out of the house most of the day. I didn’t expect to be gone as long as I was and didn’t take enough food with me and completely forgot to grab my drops. By 7 pm (when I sat down to eat dinner), I had only had 110 calories at that point which was my morning coffee and an apple at lunch. I didn’t feel too bad on Day 7, other than a little hungry. However on Day 8 I was very slow going and felt sluggish and dehydrated most of the day. From here on I hope to not run into another predicament that causes me to have to rush out without preparing first. But I am going to keep lean deli slices, and finger veggies in the fridge to be able to grab in such cases, just in case.

But as I said earlier, I’m on Day 9 and feeling much better. I’m down 7.8 lbs and going in the morning for my first weigh in since starting the diet at the doctor office. I have had a lot of cravings for sweets this weekend. . . ok, so I’ve actually only had a lot of cravings for one sweet, a Chick-fil-a vanilla milkshake! Mark my words, my first sweet coming off this diet will be a chick-fil-a milkshake!  🙂